Why I am in Germany? (and yes please, I am asking for help)

Specifically, why I am in Bad Salzhausen undergoing chemotherapy where I am going to lose my hair again? Because I can walk around the inhalatorium, drink from the lithiumquelle, make myself fresh squeezed juice before every meal, visualize healing rays of light and switches turning off oncogenes as I feel the heat from the local hyperthermia on my skin and in my bones. Because I told Dr. Herzog that I wanted to be done with this and be healed - that my doing alternatives was not enough to kick this and that we are surrendering to the Universe that this is where I am supposed to be.

My meditation today for the Course in Miracles is, "God's Will for me is perfect happiness," and that I am worthy of asking for help.

I have been told that I am not very good at asking for help for myself - which I think has something to do with a foolish idea that I am not WORTHY of such help/such asking/etc. So that stops now. As such, I have set up a widget so that if you want to contribute financially to this quest of mine, you can. (look right)

If I were to do all treatments in Germany the full cost would be about $125,000-$150,000. (Just to give you some perameters).

Given the whole kerfuffle of money making people insane, etc. I appreciate your understanding and thank you for your support.