I have never taken a bath in melted chocolate, but I imagine that it is similar sensory experience to being in Ammaji’s presence. A warm soft bath of delicious love, saturating every pore of one’s being. Warm chocolate oozing between ones toes, warm against ones knees, I would dip my head down and take a lick of my arm. The smell! Could you imagine the smell of being enveloped in warm chocolate!!Read More
I know that sounds a bit crazy, but that is how I feel. I just returned from my second retreat with her and I seriously feel as though my heart has expanded in my chest. It has gotten bigger. and yes - the retreat was filled with miracles, and stretchings of my comfort zone, and the ability for me to share my story with those who needed it, and real conversations, and love, and laughter, and chanting, and mantras, and meditations, and GREAT food, and hugs!!!
Om Namah Shivaya
I spend an endless day with Amma and her traveling band of helpers and pundits. It was perhaps four days total, but the days and nights were mixed up (because Amma doesn't sleep and I think they are also on India time). I received 4 hugs from her - and took it upon myself to look upon every conversation I had with anyone there as an extension of talking to Amma herself.
As such, I met a wonderful couple from Hudson River Valley, a gentleman doing sustainable farming in Vermont (and he introduced me to the Anatasia series), a former gambler from Vancouver, and an acupunturist who told me "Your problem is from a past life, it is not your fault." (wow was THAT nice to hear, a huge relief.)
As I approach the results of testings and doings I am happy I received a mantra from her - and grateful for the birthday gift of the Buddha beads for me to run through my fingers as I zone into the world of repeating again and again and again....
and when I pull my head up, I think again: Thank you for my Magical Life.
(Have you read my book yet? It really is a great book. I am VERY proud of it.)
We went on Friday night and got a hug from Amma. It was the second time we have done it and I am so happy both of us were able to be there again. Last year, when she hugged us - I immediately burst into tears. I felt my whole body tingling and happy and full of energy. It was incredible.
As I sat there for the rest of the night (and early morning) I thought to myself of how nice it is to have a female guru.Â Whenever I think of God I think of a male figure. I wanted to feel as though there is a person who understands my body and what it feels like to feel twinges and know that a fertility cycle is beginning, ending, or in the middle. As I sat there last year thinking of my FEAR and female bits and thinking of Amma. I made myself a pledge.
Amma has a nose ring. After seeing her that night, I promised myself I would go home and get a nose ring to show that am devoted to the female part of our Universal energy. I would also be able to touch the nose ring whenever FEAR showed up to talk to me about my female bits.
That is what I did in 2008.
This year I had ample evidence that my female bits are coming back online as we received our second hug. Thank you Amma!